I’ll be completely honest, I’ve barely read my Bible lately. We went through a time when Gabe was waking up all night long and I wasn’t about to get up early to get that time in. I’ve just totally fallen out of it. And now our schedule is shredded like confetti and tossed into the sky, now that school is out.
I’ve been leaning really heavily on podcast (don’t you love them?!) for spiritual nourishment. The past couple days I’ve listened to some sermons by Francis Chan. Now, if you want to get real uncomfortable and challenged- this is the guy for you. I’ve even had moments of wondering if I should even listen. Seriously.
“The servant who knows the master’s will and does not get ready or does not do what the master wants will be beaten with many blows. But the one who does not know and does things deserving punishment will be beaten with few blows. From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked…..” Luke 12:47-48
Strong, strong words from scripture. This was a parable so I don’t think it literally means we are going to physically beaten at judgement. I think it’s an illustration that knowing God’s will does not put us at any advantage if we aren’t willing to act on it. In fact, if we “know better” but ignore what we know- we will be all the more culpable.
“Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.” James 1:22
It’s such a frightening thought to me. I realized, listening to the sermon- that I am so completely selfish. So driven to get my own needs met. I am so prone to deceive myself. I realize how easily it is to slip out of God’s will and not even realize it. We are masters at deceiving ourselves. We give God lip service. We crack open his Word here and there. Maybe we even have a fish decal on our car. All of this matters so very little.
“God, I know I am so very prone to self-deception and selfishness. Please shine your light into my heart so I can see the truth of where I’m at. And thank you that you love me anyways. Lord, I pray that you would help me to truly live for you. That my heart would beat for you. That I would really care about the lost. That I would live for eternal things. I know that the things I think will make me happy, won’t and can’t. Only in you is true joy and peace found. In Jesus name, Amen.”