I guess I’ve been feeling very nostalgic lately. My oldest child, Michael, is almost 13 and…we’ll just say he’s rapidly changing. Everyday when my facebook memories pop up and I see how he looked just a year ago, I am blown away by how much he has changed in just a year. He’s shot up like 4 inches, gained like 15 pounds and is losing his boyish look.
He’s growing up. He’s changing. Most of these changes are involuntary, and the spring forth (often in the most awkward of ways!) like a force of nature. Growing up is a part of life. But growing spiritually is completely different. It doesn’t just happen. We don’t wake up one day spiritually mature by accident. It’s a process. It takes time, experience, and cooperating with God through the work of the Holy Spirit.
God wants us to grow up.
“When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child. But when I grew up, I put away childish things.” 1 Corinthians 13:11
This past year has been one of growing up. Of throwing down the gauntlet. For a long time I was struggling with my doubts and really walking the fence. No wonder I felt so unsure and struggled so much to obey God. I made the decision that I was going to pursue God, no matter what. Daily I was going to seek, daily I was going to submit my will to His.
“My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.”
And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.”…Awake, harp and lyre! I will awaken the dawn.” Psalm 27:8, 108:2
I’ve got my alarm set for 5:30. I’m spending an hour a day with God in the morning. It has been completely changing my life. No more waffling. This is my commitment and I will carve out the time. I want to grow up. I want to be a mature believer that God can use mightily. I want to go from the spiritual, infantile milk to the spiritual meat described in Hebrews 5. I don’t want to live my life in spiritual diapers.
I want to be full of the Word, full of the Spirit, I want to advance the kingdom of God with every day and every breathe that I take.
“Lord, we thank you that you love and care for us regardless of our state or level of maturity, but we also know that you want us to grow up in the things of God so we can accomplish the plans and works you established before the dawn of creation. help us to get off the fence, and to love you with all our hearts, minds, and strength. Thank you that in living for you we find abundant life and you fulfill the desires of our hearts. Amen.”