One Day at a Time

This has rapidly become a “TSW” (topical steroid withdrawal) blog.  I know, I know.  Just shy of three weeks ago we were thrust into this world we weren’t aware of.

Now I look back and I can see that at least 90% of Gabe’s “eczema” we’ve been treating for ages was, in fact, actually symptoms of damage and addiction from the creams we were using.  How horrible is that?

It is vindicating to me, in a way; as a more natural-minded type of person.  I never wanted to use steroids anyways.  I did when I felt like it was the only option.  Now I know there are so many natural ways to treat eczema.

It’s a difficult process to go through any sort of withdrawal.  Though topical steroid withdrawal is particularly brutal.  Many adults going through this have gotten to lows where they are suicidal.  Because the pain is that bad.  The itch is bone deep.  You can go days without more than a few hours of sleep. Your skin looks absolutely horrific to the point where you don’t want to leave your house.

I feel like we have been extremely fortunate in that Gabe is still sleeping relatively well.  He is doing very well emotionally.  He seemed ok to me but I wanted to make sure and I was asking him questions about how he was doing “on the inside” with all of this.  He didn’t know what I meant so I said, “does going through all of this make you feel sad?”  He looked at me like I had asked him an inane question, “of course not, why would it?”  He has had a good deal of pain and discomfort but he has taken it in a stride.  He is handling everything so well.

We’ve been doing everything we can to help his body heal.  He was on antibiotics because his skin had gotten “staphy” at one point early on.  He’s been drinking a lot of kombucha to help build up his good bacteria.  I’ve also made a couple pots of super healing soup.  The combo of bone broth, veggies, and spices is so good for him…and it tastes good too!

We did get great news from the dermatologist we saw last week.  She has swabbed Gabe to check for pathogenic bacteria.  I was actually shocked when it came back negative.  She said Gabe had normal skin flora and that the Doctor said she thought our regime is working well, and to keep it up.  That is huge because the main risk now would be from a serious secondary infection (from staph or step) until his skin is in better shape.

We were doing two baths a day when he was in really rough shape.  Now we just do one, at night, with warm water, sea salt, ACV, and lavender oil (we avoid soap cause it dries him out).  After his bath I put on coconut oil, Egyptian magic, clove oil (just two drops, heavily diluted) and silver gel as needed.  Our magic potion ingredients- 20170307_221256.jpg

I’ve read that there isn’t much you can do to speed up the process of withdrawal.  But I don’t think that’s true.  I’ve scoured so many blogs and articles and I really think that you can aid the process of healing along in many ways.

A huge way to hasten recovery is with positivity.  I’m a faith person so I believe 100% in the power of prayer.  I know Gabe has so many people praying for him and that has carried us through to this point.  I also believe that our faith has kept us positive and joyful, even during our worst moments.  We are looking for and celebrating every sign of improvement.  We are looking on the bright side.  We are practicing thankfulness.

He is showing improvement.  I don’t want to jump the gun, because I know that recovery is cyclical, but we are happy, nonetheless.

This was his back about ten days ago- 20170227_171250

This was him today- 20170307_134034.jpg

His neck and torso were initially the worst spots.  Now they are looking much less red and inflamed.  Though it seems to be working it’s way out, down to his legs and up to his face and his hands.  His legs are almost purplish as the blood vessels are very dilated.

“One day at a time” has been my mantra and that is how we will continue to handle this.  We will do everything we can but ultimately trust that we are doing the right thing and that God is sovereignly guiding this process.

The good that has come has been that we have drawn closer together as a family.  We now finally know the cause of Gabe’s ever-worsening “eczema” and more importantly, we know what to do.

Strength in Joy

This process of Gabe going through topical steroid withdrawal has been the hardest thing my husband and I have ever gone through.  A difficult and painful road, and made so much worse by the fact that the medical community refuses to acknowledge the scope of the problem (or even that it exists).

Trying to explain to Gabe’s school was difficult, what do you say?  My child can’t come to school because his skin is raw, peeling off, and he can barely move?   Is it his eczema?  No…. it’s steroid induced red skin syndrome.  Just try explaining that succintly.

The first fews days we were in total crisis mode.  Gabe was in very rough shape.  Now, thankfully, things have calmed down quite a bit though Gabe still deals with a lot of pain and suffering.  We still have to coax him into the bath because his skin is so raw it is sensitive to the slightest touch.  He wakes up in a literal pile of dead skin, as his skin is shedding faster than we can keep up with.  He still needs helps getting out of bed and getting into the tub.

But, like I said before- we have hope.  This condition is as simple (though agonizing) as letting the body heal from the steroids.

I pulled this picture from the ITSAN website…. donate

This little girl recovered.  Gabe will too.

In the midst of this storm though I have had an almost irrational joy and optimism.  I think this is what it feels like when God goes through the fire with you.  The flames are real but so is His peace.  He never lets go.  Even when we doubt and fear and blame him.

“This day is holy to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.” Nehemiah 8:10

 

 

Update on Gabe

I ended up deleting my past 4 posts for a couple reasons.  My husband didn’t like that I was putting Gabe’s suffering out there for the World to see and also that we want to be able to do what’s best for Gabe without fear of outside forces *ahem* meddling.

My husband and I process things very differently.  He is very stoic and private.  I’m an open book and sharing (with as many people as possible) makes me feel better.  But I respect his wishes and I see his point.  We will probably share more when Gabe is well along his healing journey.  We do want to raise awareness.

But still, there is good news and darn it, I want to share!  Gabe is doing a lot better than he was last week.  A lot of the more frightening symptoms have subsided.  His skin doesn’t look nearly as red.  He still has a lot of healing ahead of him, but we are so encouraged.

His actual eczema is almost non-existent.  I still believe God touched him and healed his eczema.  We saw enough of an improvement that we were prompted to get him off the steroids- the medicine that was poisoning his body.  Now we just need to go through the withdrawals.

Like so often, healing is a journey.  It’s a path.  There are good days and bad days, ups and downs.  But you discover so much along the way.  The journey itself becomes sacred in it’s own way.

We have also found an online community of people on this same journey.  There is a lot of encouragement and help to be found.

I do believe that God is blessing Gabe with a quick healing.  Some things I am doing to help are…

-twice daily soaks in the tub.  Sometimes up to an hour.  We toss in Epsom salt and essential oils or olive oil and fresh garlic.  After twenty minutes or so his pores really open up and I think he has been able to do a lot of detoxing that way.  The steroids cause the skin to constrict, and he was on them for so long his skin hasn’t properly detoxed in ages.  TMI alert- the bath water takes on the characteristic icky ooze smell so associated with TSW after awhile.  It gets pretty gross.  I theorize that it’s toxins and trapped sebum in the water.

We’ve also been using a zinc oxide (diaper rash cream) on his really bad spots.  For the rest of his body it is Egyptian magic, coconut oil, silver cream, and a drop or two of clove or lavender oil.

He is on antibiotics because he had gotten ‘staphy’ on his arms and torso last week.  That looks a lot better and we hope this is the only time he’ll need them.

We met with a new dermatologist today.  She was very understanding and admitted she thought Gabe did have a problem related to the steroids, though she stopped just shy of labeling it as “RSS”.  She was very supportive of us treating him without steroids.  She wrote us a couple perscriptions that may come in handy.

Gabe is handling this all really well.  He has been such a trooper.  We explained to him what was happening and why, and he has been so brave in handling a process that is very painful and difficult.