If there’s a grassroots movement any more controversial than refusing vaccines I certainly don’t know of it. I really debated whether or not on whether to post our story because of the issue of the controversy associated with it. The topic is incredibly polarizing and this is primarily a blog on living life as a Christ follower….but this is also something I feel incredibly passionate about. If you don’t agree, that’s ok. This is my story.
I had my first child, Michael, at the age of 18. I was very young but I took the responsibility of growing a baby very seriously. I went from a diet coke and skittles diet to eating balanced meals and lots of veggies. I took fish oil and gagged down pre-natal vitamins inspite of morning sickness.
Michael was perfect. He was beautiful. People would stop me on the street to comment on what a beautiful and happy baby he was.
He hit all his milestones early. He was walking at 10 months. He talked, he sang, he was a very happy and easy going baby.
But around the 18 month mark he underwent some extreme personality changes. At the time I chalked it up to the fact that I had met, married and moved in with my husband very quickly and it was a LOT of change for a little kid to go through very quickly.
Michael would have uncontrollable tantrums. Michael would bang his head violently in his crib at night. It became difficult to bring Michael to public places because he would get completely out of control (sensory overload). We also noticed that Michael had extreme reactions to loud noises.
At the time I was so young and knew almost nothing about autism. This was almost 11 years ago and autism wasn’t as prevalent as it is now.
We began to realize that there was something wrong but we had no idea what. We brought Michael out to parks frequently and there was a stark difference between him and the other kids his age.
The first time the “autism” word was introduced was when his great aunt commented that Michael acted in a similar manner as a man she worked with, and that man had autism.
As he got older he developed facial ticks. He also developed a complete obsession with anything with a screen, especially video games. Once we found him playing his Nintendo D.S. at five in the morning with a hollow look in his eyes.
He would say inappropriate things and seemingly overreact to the slightest touch or provocation.
I guess I always imagined that other people had special needs kids. People that were smart and capable. I was young and dumb. If you can imagine a very young mom dealing with an autistic child when she knew basically nothing about the disorder- tough was an understatement. I shudder thinking about the many times we “lost” it on Michael when we were presented with what we thought was extreme defiance and in reality Michael was coping with a traumatic brain injury.
I now believe that Michael was born healthy and so called “neuro-typical”. I always had a strong feeling, call it mothers intuition, that that shots caused his condition. As he grew and I realized the magnitude of his condition I turned to the modern marvel that is google.
I stayed up late reading story after story of parents claiming that their children were injured by vaccines. Not just autism, but also SIDS and a wide variety of other issues. Michael underwent a change that would have coincided with his 18 month check up and shots. Unfortunately, I didn’t make the connection till years later.
They say, “safe and effective” and “reactions are 1 in a million”. It isn’t true. Most reactions go unreported because parents are uninformed. They don’t know what to look for. When the baby has a seizure a week after vaccines they don’t automatically connect the dots. Or when somethings happens and they do confront the doctor, they are almost always brushed off and left to sort through the fallout themselves. When a baby dies in his sleep following a well-baby check at 2 or 4 months it is ruled as SIDS and swept under the rug.
I didn’t learn till years later but pediatricians get bonuses (very large ones) from insurance companies when a certain percentage of their patients are fully vaccinated. I was hesitant to vaccinate (I just had a bad feeling about it) but the Doctor was incredibly pushy and made it sound like my son would drop dead from an infectious disease if I didn’t get every shot, on time, plus countless boosters. I ignored my feelings and went ahead because who was I to question established medicine?
Now I understand that Doctors are part of a very lucrative business. The business of vaccines. In 1989 vaccine developers were given complete immunity. Us little people were no longer able to sue if our kid was severely injured. Vaccines became a cash cow after that and a bunch of new ones were introduced to the schedule as quickly as possible. It was a gold rush. Testing was pretty minimal because vaccines are assumed to be safe and there is a strong financial incentive to assume that. At around that time the first rumblings of autism were being heard.
I was born in 1986. When I was in school we never heard of autism. Or life-threatening peanut allergies. Most kids were basically healthy and slim. Health problems were very rare.
Is it a coincidence that the autism rate went from 1 in 10,000 in the 1980’s to now (some estimates put it as high as) 1 in 36?
The landscape of our schools has changed dramatically. I know because I volunteer at my kids elementary school and you see it constantly. Kids rock back in forth in their chairs. Kids wear noise blocking headphones. Kids need access to epi-pens at all times. Teachers are stressed out trying to teach the kids while managing all the cornucopia of special needs represented in any given classroom.
It is tragically ironic that we inject our kids with so many vaccines trying to keep them healthy but they are incredibly sick, sicker than ever.
What I didn’t know back when my son was vaccinated is that these shots use aluminum in nano-particle form as an adjuvant-a substance that enhances the body’s immune response to an antigen. They just assumed (based on ORALLY ingested) tests that the body could safely cope with and remove the toxic burden. But ingesting and injecting are completely different ball games. When we ingest aluminum we are able to clear it out of our systems almost completely through the natural digestive process. But when we inject nano-particle aluminum our bodies send in white blood cells in response, which in turn surround (encapsulate) the aluminum, and then…it can travel throughout the body through our blood stream and lymphatic system. It can and does get deposited in the brain. http://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-5133049/Aluminium-vaccines-cause-autism.html Aluminum is extremely neuro-toxic and no more so than when it invades the brain of a formerly healthy infant. Or it can get lodged into muscle tissue until a traumatic injury or sickness signals the white blood cells to come. The blood cells come and bring in a toxic cargo along with them. That’s why not all vaccine injuries are seen immediately. The aluminum can hang around in the body for an indeterminate period of time before causing all kinds of damage even years later.
I find that it’s common that most parents will scour nutrition labels and be careful about what they feed their children (which is good) but have no idea what is actually being injected into their children.
Most people don’t know that there is peanut proteins (hello deadly food allergy!), tissue from aborted babies, and the same toxic carcinogenic junk they use to embalm dead bodies. If you think I am making this stuff up you can visit the CDCs website and check out the ingredients for yourself. https://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/vac-gen/additives.htm
Autism is a blanket term for “neurological damage caused by vaccines”. We are being lied to. if you don’t believe check this out-
A top CDC scientist came out and admitted that they had lied about the correlation they had found between the MMR shot and autism. They purposefully fudged the data the hide the link. Because admitting that they caused nothing less than a modern day holocaust on our babies is not something that they are going to do.
That explosive news never made it to main stream media. Why? Have you ever watched CNN or Foxnews? It’s constant drug advertisements. The pharmaceutical companies hold major sway in what stories see the light of day.
Are we all going to die if we don’t vaccinate? I didn’t vaccinate my youngest and so far she hasn’t started any epidemics. In fact she has no allergies, eczema, has never had an ear infection, and on and on.
Depending on where you live the only real threat is in getting measles. Which contrary to popular, media-hyped, belief- is easily treated with mega doses of vitamin A.
Now research is showing that vaccines aren’t as effective as originally thought. That measles outbreak at Disneyland? Half of them were fully vaccinated. Mumps outbreak amongst Norwegian college kids? All fully vaccinated. http://sciencenordic.com/mumps-outbreak-hits-students-several-norwegian-cities
So why risk injecting these toxic cocktails when there is no guarantee for real immunity?
Does the system really care about you or your health? Or are you and your children being used for profit? Globally, vaccines are expected to bring in 49 billion dollars next year in revenue. https://www.statista.com/statistics/265102/revenues-in-the-global-vaccine-market/
It’s really up to you and it should be.
How is Michael today? He’s doing pretty good. He’s extremely lucky. The real test is will he be able to function as an adult in society and I think that he will be.
That is not to say that is hasn’t been incredibly difficult getting to this point, that Michael hasn’t had to go through much pain, struggle and heartache for a choice he didn’t make. I can’t articulate how hard it has been for all of us.
One conversation I will never forget is one I had with someone who was very pro-vax on the internet (cause those always go so well…) in which he accused me of looking for somewhere to lay the blame so I wouldn’t have to accept responsibility myself- for being a crappy parent and causing the autism somehow, I suppose. Other than being completely insensitive and really horrific to say to a mother of a special needs child, it was so completely untrue that it literally could not have been more wrong.
The guilt is horrible. I feel wracked with it at night when I let my mind wander and consider what could have been. If I’d followed my gut and not had him vaccinated. If Michael had been allowed to develop normally.
That’s why I’m writing this blog. Because this is my story, Michael’s story. I’m not looking to absolve myself of responsibility. The sad truth is that my story is not unique and it’s becoming increasingly common. I’m trying to share our story in order to warn others. I’m telling the truth and there is power in that. Even if only one person has read to this point and it influences further decisions they make.