If you’ve read my blog over this past year you’ll know my son, Gabriel, went through a really awful withdrawal from topical steroids. It was so bed he was basically on bedrest for months. Basically he had gotten addicted to very strong steroids and it made “eczema” spread all over his body and affected his entire system. I really don’t want to post pictures but google “topical steroid withdrawal” and you’ll get this gist of how horrific and debilitating this condition is.
But now 11 months in and he is so much better.
He’s not 100% yet but he’s come leaps and bounds from where he was. So much so that we got a call from his school principal saying “Gabe’s looking great! So… we really want him back in full school days.” I told her it’d be a rough adjustment but we’d try.
Yesterday morning when I woke him up early it was so tough. Because his adrenal glands were so messed up from the steroid usage, he has struggled horribly with insomnia. We’ve (up till now) let him sleep in because he sleeps so poorly at night and for whatever reason slept better during morning hours.
But he has been making major strides so my husband and I agreed it might actually be helpful to try to force his body back into a more regular sleep schedule. The first morning was rough but he actually did sleep a lot better last night and woke up much easier this morning.
It’s a huge step for him and milestone. He still has a ways to go before he is 100% healed but we are so thankful for the progress he has made.
A lot of times in life the path to healing is bumpy and hard. There are times we need to push out of our comfort zones to reach the next level. Change is hard but often necessary.
As Gabe’s loving parents there have been times where we comforted him and carried him (ha literally) but on this journey we’ve increasingly pushed him out of his comfort zone. As he’s gotten better we’ve adjusted his treatment accordingly. As he grew wings we’ve metaphorically pushed him out of the nest. Times where we knew he was capable but it was his mind that was stuck.
How many of us are perfectly capable of making necessary changes but are still stuck in old patterns? We were too sick at one point but we’re stronger now but still being held back purely in our minds?
“Dear Jesus, you know our hurts, our pasts, our fears. I pray that for all of us that you’d help us to break free from restrictive and sickly thought patterns. Help us to embrace wholeness in every area. Help us to find our wings and courage and fresh hope and get out of our comfort zones. For your glory. Amen.”