I feel like God often speaks to me in themes and the theme of the month has been on prayer.
It really started Thanksgiving went I went to visit my Grandma Judy for Thanksgiving. My grandma is basically a saint in my eyes. When I was a young teen mom she came to my rescue and worked her grandma magic many times at the drop of a hat. I don’t get to see her enough because she lives a couple hours away.
So when she invited us for Thanksgiving of course I said YES (she is also an incredible cook….) but when the day rolled around my daughter, Shiloh, was on the tail end of a cough. Which gave me pause because my Grandma and Grandpa are both on oxygen for their emphysema. They also care for my Great Grandma who is 91.
I texted my grandma whether or not I should still come with a sickish kid and she said yes. So we went and had a great time….. until that night when we got home and realized Shiloh had a fever and was getting sick with something else.
The next day I started coming down with the flu. I felt absolutely terrible with worry that I am may have exposed my grandparents to a sickness that would be far more devastating for them than for us.
I really entered some fervent prayer.
In my praying I felt very undeserving. I hadn’t been seeking God like I should…I felt like that kid that makes that collect call home on Father’s Day.
I said, “Lord, I don’t deserve this answer to prayer but please….do it on account of everything Jesus did for us on the cross.” At that moment it dawned on me why we finish every prayer with “In Jesus name”.
See, we always enter prayer undeserving. Whether we feel it or not. It’s best to just get that out there. We can’t possibly earn the right to “deserve” anything from God. It’s just all based on his grace and goodness towards us.
“The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.”
I had to bust out the Old King James for that one. Our prayers are so powerful. Especially when we double down with fervency. “But I don’t feel very righteous.” Yeah, I don’t always float around on a cloud of happy, holy emotions either…but-
“God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.” 2 Cor. 5:21
In Him we have access to the righteousness of God. That’s why we ask that He answer our prayers in the name of Jesus- the name above every other name. So when Satan tries to discourage us from praying we can tell him where to go because through Him we have access to the throne room.
My grandparents didn’t get sick.
Also, my oldest son has been doing really well. I’ve been getting glowing emails from school.
And we witnessed nothing short of a miracle this morning…. my son Gabe has had a very troublesome blood vessel protruding from his cheek for months. Almost daily he would accidentally scratch it and it would bleed like crazy. It had grown and grown so I made an appointment to have it lasered off.
That appointment was supposed to be today. I say supposed to because I cancelled it. A giant scab came off his cheek and revealed that the vessel (which had been protruding quite a bit) had gone back under the skin and was healing over.
I had been praying that God would heal it so that we could avoid another traumatic visit to the doctor, and He did!