It was a really tough weekend. A round of antibiotics had failed to heal up painful skin infections on my boy. He wasn’t sleeping much because of the pain.
My husband and I have both been really weary. Our anniversary passed (again) with a sick kid and heavy hearts.
We have both been grappling with our faith in this mess. One thing though that I keep thinking about is the life of the Apostle Paul. He went through so many crazy hard things, so many moments where he would have been justified in throwing in the towel and deciding maybe following Jesus wasn’t worth it.
“Five times I received from the Jews the forty lashes minus one. Three times I was beaten with rods, once I was pelted with stones, three times I was shipwrecked, I spent a night and a day in the open sea, I have been constantly on the move. I have been in danger from rivers, in danger from bandits, in danger from my fellow Jews, in danger from Gentiles; in danger in the city, in danger in the country, in danger at sea; and in danger from false believers. I have labored and toiled and have often gone without sleep; I have known hunger and thirst and have often gone without food; I have been cold and naked.” 2 Cor. 11:24-27
How has our Americanized, comfort-centered thinking colored our view of Christianity? We think (if we’re willing to admit it) that if we are good people, pray, go to church, etc. that we should get some kind of a blessed (charmed) life. When that doesn’t work out we are bewildered and our flimsy faith teeters.
But what if God isn’t after our comfort but in refining our faith? What if he doesn’t want content pew-fillers but believers on fire for eternity? Believers who realize that our time here on Earth is about so much more than seeking our own temporal happiness?
The prayer of my heart is, “Lord help me to learn the lessons you have for me here, in this tough place. Do a work in me that can’t be accomplished any other way. Our baby boy belongs to you and we know you hold him and his future in your hands. Whom else have we in Heaven but you? You alone have the words that bring eternal life. Therefore, we will put our trust in you.”
Spring finally came to Minnesota. A praise-a-lullah! Yesterday I took my kids to a (yet) deserted beach and had my son reveal his wounded flesh to the intense UV rays. He actually slept last night and looks much better today. We’re hopefully going to go back for more old school, helio-therapy. healing power of sunlight
A verse I am praying is “He sent out his word and healed them..” Psalm 107:20 I am thanking God that he is sending out His word to heal Gabe. We want to thank him in advance. 😉 In the mean time we do everything we can in the natural, while God works things out in the supernatural.
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
We believe in miracles but sometimes God has something better in store than that instant miracle. He sees the big picture. He is GOOD. He wants our trust. It matters how we respond to the trials he allows. It matters for eternity.